I am unbelievably upset today. I have been working HARD since I started with my personal trainer about 6 weeks ago. The past 2 weeks I've been working out 2x a week for an hour and 2x a week for a half hour. I've got a great mixture of weight training and cardio, I eat about 1500-1800 calories a day and I drink only water and juice. Yesterday I was ecstatic because my arms fit into a shirt that 6 weeks ago was really tight. My legs are getting toned and I'm getting fit. This sounds great, right?
Last night after my hour-long sweat fest, I got on the scale to see where my weight and fat percentage were at. I truly thought I would be seeing a healthy 125 on that scale (the last time I was on it, it was at 128). My jaw quite literally dropped open as I looked down and it said 129. "Ok, whatever," I kept thinking, "It's probably muscle. The important part is the fat percentage, just remember that." So, I hopefully looked down to see how much fat I had cut off of my body (previous was 23%). Not only did my jaw drop, but my heart did as well, as I looked at the screen with tears streaming down my face.
25%.
How could this be true? 25 percent? My body fat has steadily gone UP since I started this program! 6 weeks ago, I was at 22% and not doing one ounce of exercise. And now I work out pretty dang hard 4 times a week and I'm FATTER!????
As you can imagine, I'm pretty upset. I'm more than upset. I think my trainer thinks I'm lying about my food intake, so he put me on this cool computer program that tracks what you eat and gives you a letter grade for your intake of everything. If anyone is interested, it's at q4fnutrition.com. They even lay out perfect meals for you. But I swear on my life, your life and your children's lives that I am being completely honest with all of this! I'm not a binge eater, I'm not anorexic, and I KNOW that the three spoonfuls of Ben & Jerry's I've had this week did not put 2% more fat in my body!
I had to vent, I'm sorry. I'm just truly appalled that all this work I'm putting in is just a load of crap and it's not doing anything for me except make me fatter! I know it's so ungrateful, but I'm just frustrated and unhappy with my body right now. The only good reason I thought might make this happen is pregnancy, but I took ANOTHER test and it came out negative. I'm so confused about all this right now and just want my body back.
Friday, June 27, 2008
Fat Camp
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Ooh I know what you mean. I will go a week or so and eat well and run and feel healthy and I'll get on the scale and 128 just flashes on the scale. I want to kill somebody when I see that number.
I'm convinced a study will come out one day announcing that working out and eating vegetables is bad for you and will cause cancer. Just keep holding out for that.
SHAN! You are a stinker! Bytheway, you've never been even close to fat, girl! And never will be! I think you are strikingly gorgeous, AND you're skinny too...even if you might think otherwise. I know, it's super frustrating when you're working so hard for something and see no results...but just remember, you're still tiny--don't whither away on me--I won't have my Shan anymore! It's already bad enough that I can't see you cuz you're across the country...when I get the opportunity to eventually see you, I want to actually SEE you!:) Of course, it doesn't matter what I (or anyone else) thinks, but I know I am not the only one that just thinks you are absolutely beautiful! You have a cute little bod! You're hot! Ogg thinks so too :)
i'm sure you look amazing as always. at least you don't have 15 pounds more to go like me. then i have to worry about all the toning, but i don't think i'll have too hard of a time running after these 2 boys all of the time.
Hmm, you know that you're gorgeous right? Always have been!
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